Dust to Dust, Back to Earth

I like nature walks like these in the real world. Not every one can or should follow me though. We all need OUR OWN TIMELINES and paths in life. You can follow me for instance online, but you can do it when you feel like, even in the YEAR you feel like.

I may be returning to Mother Earth themes in the future of my online publishing. Just focusing on health, body, the lands we live on, cultivation, herbalism, organics, gardening(?) even thinking spiritually about people and living. I’ve dealt with the past a lot in recent years and I don’t want to keep going on it. I feel stalkers and snoopers needed to be MORE AWARE why I’m not their actual target. I’m not well monied nor well connected. I had to be disconnected a long time ago. I was replaced by at least 30 people! I discovered… there IS NO SPOT FOR ME to take, slip into, or waiting for me anywhere in Hollywood even outside of it for the town. So I’m staying retired from it.

Here on my blog site, I may continue to post broader ideas and themes. I humbly apologize if there were people expecting me to be a full Hollywood Spielberg. I’m not the same blood, nor same kind of people. I’m more a bohemian, mellow, easy going type of person. Not fancy, just kinda average.

What is the “dust to dust” reference? It means I spent much of my time in my earliest years outside under the sun and skies even barefoot by choice. I like the idea of remembering the Earth and being a part of IT. I don’t have be “one with the human race” or “one with the entertainment’s hive mind thinking and experience”. Being a part of the entertainment industry, even as a friend and not-employed… means a certain ongoing awareness and thoughtfulness. I NO LONGER NEED TO “hold fast” to it. I am returning to “dusty things”. I’m dead to entertainment, but not so much to our Mother Earth. I still have things to do for it. TBD!

No more major corporation contacts!

Hey people, I was too young to be a real corporation executive in the 1970s. I had connections back then to future high paying jobs, but I got HOSTAGED… even taken around the world for a time. Mainly in Hollywood, people were injuring me and asking for money. I BEGGED to be disconnected. I didn’t want to spend my early years in life being attacked. It looked bleak, like criminals just planned to injure me, get money and kill me. Family members were injured too. So WE HAD TO BE DISCONNECTED. There was NO WAY OUT. The companies I had connections to were young and some in start up, meaning no dividends or pay checks anyway. So no hostage money for criminals. I just got cut off completely–no more future job. There were years, decades I lived in low poverty as a result. The criminals involved just kept demanding money and were even stealing survival monies. Some in L.A. PRETENDED they stole my wealth and clout. My health was poor, I was interfered with on so many levels for years and years… but I guess the memo didn’t go out and around? Not connected. Not making any money from anything for years. I was on a stipend to be kept alive. I don’t think I even made a phone call to any company owners to wish happy birthday or anything my whole life. So this idea of threatening to harm me for hostage monies is pathetic. Has been for decades now. Criminals just get frustrated and punished.

What this looks like I was an ACE of cards in the 1970s that people used… got turned into an average “3”, not even a clever deuce(“2”). Looking at things now, it appears criminals have been in denial all these years. May be why I wasn’t allowed to just go have a normal average working middle class life. They may STILL be pretending I have value somehow.

I’ve been a disabled person. In the past they’ve paid doctors off to not allow a disability letter. I’m mobile these days, just not healthy enough for full time work even at a desk.

The Big Chair

a repost from X.com/former Twitter.com

I keep referring to “my [professional] identity” having been stolen, bought and sold, used by others. THINK OF IT… like a seat at an exclusive business club.

Alone I could not get the chair in the first place, it existed because of people bigger than me. I got to visit and sit in it briefly in life while very defamed and discredited. Personally, I couldn’t afford to keep the seat funded, nor did I have enough friends to tell others to leave it in place. I did help each person who sat in the chair in big or small ways with what I did have. Sure it happens to other small people. It is why I can’t do much in society. Big people sit in that chair all the time.

What is the seat labeled? I’m not certain what the name is these days for the paperwork. It could be under “Steven” or “Mike/Michael/Miguel” or “Donna” or “Sarah” and other possibilities.

The Small Town Soap Box

fictional mini story

There in the middle of a small town square of a few hundred people… was a very practical wooden box about a meter square or three feet at every dimension. Every Friday afternoon before everyone went home for dinner one person stood on the box and spoke of the week’s currents. Another may stand up on it and give some advice, yet another may tell a short story or some jokes and that’s it every week. Who gets to stand on the soapbox? Well it could be the same people, or the whole town could take turns. What if the whole town did take turns and certain people were “always unavailable” when it was their turn?

One day a youth went looking for an older woman who was never taking her turn. He went to her home on the outskirts of town and knocked on the door. “Ma’am? Why haven’t you taken your turn on the box during my whole life? No one even wants to talk about you.”

The old woman was slow to begin then replied, “I stood on the soapbox for an hour in my youth. I was shaking from injuries and malnutrition and told the story about the sister town twenty miles away that was raided and burned to the ground. This town doesn’t even want to look at me because it reminds them of what happened.”

Invasive Rose-Ringed Parakeets in Kauai, Hawaii


I just read today that the population of Rose-Ringed Parakeets on the small island of Kauai appears to have doubled in less than a decade! What has gone wrong for humans has gone right for the birds? The humans though are losing income for themselves and products for their communities and beyond. The birds have a thriving flock.

What I humbly suggest is a capture program and sponsor big cages(aviaries) of small populations of the birds throughout the U.S. and perhaps other countries. These cages could be at places in public such as parks and zoos, even potentially at large shopping centers, big offices buildings too? Perhaps if done correctly, they can be used as part of an education program that talks about wild birds, farming, humanity’s responsibilities, being a pet owner and more. Maybe the youngest of birds can be domesticated and sold to private owners to help sponsor them all?

Are they good pets? Looks like if you spend enough time and attention with them. More information on Spruce Pets website Indian Ringneck Parakeet (Rose-Ringed Parakeet): Bird Species Profile (thesprucepets.com)

If you are daring group, you could even sponsor a small sized aviary at a local school, college, hospital with these birds. Perhaps hire junior zoo keepers, youth zoologists to care for them?

An example of a backyard at home aviary.
Buy online for your home, school or business and adopt some wild parakeets from Hawaii? Here is a small one I found on AMAZON.COM. An alternative is have one built on site.

What is an Oral Agreement?

To make it very simple: It is an agreement between two people or groups that is spoken not written. The only way to keep it together is to stay in touch. Over time a spoken agreement can be forgotten even if people didn’t mean to. To stay in touch means to speak about it again. If you don’t “keep it alive” in memories of all involved it will fade away.

The human race has learned to rely more on written agreements so that people have the documents to stay in touch with as reminders. The documents allow more complicated agreements. Written agreements that are signed and witnessed help people outside of the agreements(such as helpers, assistants, other contacts) understand what is going on, including law professionals and courts of law.

Hidden Meanings? Common People and Gang Cultures

Just want to bring something up that may have gotten me into more trouble than it should have.

Gangs and gang members have certain understandings about “how things go” or “how things are supposed to go” and what certain things mean. They have created associations to mannerisms, gestures, types of speech, types of work, and more and I AM VERY UNAWARE of them. They can be very regional also, which means 500 miles away other gangs interpret things differently.

IT WAS NOTED a long time ago in my youth that I was “politician minded” NOT “gang or gangster minded” when I approached contributing to public presentations including ideas for Hollywood and other entertainment cities. I was very young and NOT educated in the various cultures globally. I took things as common people do. Maybe even scholarly, academic interpretations also. THESE MAY NOT BE THE SAME as local gang cultures.

Thankfully some people very early on ALLOWED ME to carry my own culture and approaches to understanding and interpreting the “world around me”. I learned as I went. I did learn about leaders and followers. I also learned about jealousy and ignorance and also pure anarchy. I have witnessed what is dangerous and also what helps everyone get along.

I may not have a common understanding of everything with anyone, yet… there are people who have understood me well enough that early in life I got to meet with important people. I was allowed to get very important people in person to chat with. They may have been important to gang members more than the general public. What they likely decided on is that I am NOT THE THREAT. It is NOT ME myself. They know the real players, and some WERE THE REAL PLAYERS. I have been a baby to those very big people.

Some gang people out in public have a very big chip on their shoulder. They may have done a lot of very important things however I personally don’t know them nor what they did. Please forgive me if I am the ignorant one. Okay? In all fairness I got VERY RETIRED from all kinds of people early in life. I have not been interacting much with anyone. Didn’t really need to.

Using “I” a lot in my writings, wishing it known that my interpretations and opinions are my own. Clearly am pointing at myself.

Mike W. Are You There?

Update: May 31, 2024 158pm “RV Steven” showed up with his van in the parking lot nearby. NO Mike W. THAT should tell mafia and gangs everything. He is not my bf or husband I don’t know him/them at all. In the 1970s they were tall lean men who eavesdropped on many in neighborhoods and were connected to Santa Barbara, CA people.

Original Post

the ‘wind’ wants ME to MEET with Mike W. IN PERSON TOMORROW 5/31/2024, 2pm in my neighborhood. I will agree to this! (Where I put my garbage bins for pickup). They say it is the one I know from Fast and Furious. (insert squeeeeeming of women, yelling of men!!) I am retired, can’t do much can chat though. I have no fight in mind, he can yell at me if he wishes, I can yell back too?

San Diego Police Department welcome to attend. There is probably a restraining order, however, it is not personal… it is business if he(this Mike) wants this opportunity. I am willing to chat. I don’t want trouble though. I am aged, and still feel old gang attack injuries daily sometimes.

The “San Diego me” may be old Thinkfast herself. He would know that one from Fast.

Threats on the ‘wind’, Right Now

I may have neighbors waiting to harm me no matter what I write online or offline. It is not clear to me why they would other than I am not a hired writer* in the United States of America… where all citizens actually have a RIGHT OF FREE SPEECH here. We don’t have a right to encourage violence and illegal things.

*There are some people who get jealous quickly even of people who can write decently and are not professionally hired or paid. I am not even certain who would cause harm to a decent, unpaid, amateur writer? A professional writer? A gangster child who looks for things to be jealous of anywhere with anyone?

I feel there may be terrorists living nearby, the kind who are so fearless they even threaten law enforcement and are willing to combat even try to rob and slander active U.S. military(I am child of someone who was in the U.S. Armed Forces doing civilian-like things who died a long time ago).

Just posted some writing on Donald Trump and the ‘wind’ came alive about harming me. Honestly. Am not certain who is on it nor who they are calling upon to pay attention. I have been injured by gang members in the past and was not certain what was going on. Really had more than my “fair share” of taking blows in life. I’m supposed to be an average retired person now. My opinions are my own, and mostly try to be very objective and constructive in my expressions.

Master Gambler Trump on Trial?

Former U.S. President Donald J. Trump, photo owned by U.S. Government
and The People of the United States.

Today Donald Trump, former U.S. president got found guilty of a list of charges that total to a possible four years in prison and fines. This is historical! Not everyone is from the United States and I am writing on the perspective of someone who is. This man appears to have been really pushed through a lot on the way to the White House and is still having to deal with the fallout, collateral damage. He is getting thrown under the bus in a very legal way. This is so typical in the U.S. to put gangsters and mafia people on trial. People like to know what happened, what went on and the speculation about things the public will never learn about.

I wish to dis-spell some fears some Trump supporters may have. This kind of man does not die easily. Even if sentenced to prison time, he is the kind who will make the best of it. It may even keep him from being assassinated by very angry past associates. He may be even more protected and shielded than a working U.S. president and maybe he can get some things cleaned up for people. There is even a possibility he won’t have to sit in a Federal prison and get a private U.S. government facility more suitable for his character.

The games most gangsters and mafia play do not stop with prison time or a conviction. Change of venue won’t stop the machines of their contacts and businesses. How things are handled, may change.

I’ve not been on any Trump staff so I have no NDA nor insider information.

Who is Donald Trump?

White House Donald J. Trump | The White House

Some links to news stories:

NBC https://www.nbcnews.com/politics/donald-trump/donald-trump-verdict-hush-money-trial-rcna152492

BBC bbc.co.uk/news/live/world-us-canada-65852074

CNN https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/politics/trump-is-now-a-convicted-felon-he-can-still-run-for-president/ar-BB1nlEs3?ocid=socialshare

To Save Others, I Had to Die

A long time ago I was pressured under extreme duress to drop who I was, allow others to “be me” even in person. I didn’t have enough clout by myself. I had to lose who I was permanently or, I or others were at risk of being severely damaged and even mrdrd, dead and buried. As a child I didn’t know I’d have to do such a thing… and more than once.. likely to gang members from different gangs.

People over-hostaged me VERY IMPOLITELY in my youth. Forced me to be used against all kinds of people I didn’t even know. I had to abandon more than one of my own very real identities and groups of contacts. Sorry, not fixable.

What is even more extreme… on occasions I may have ONLY BEEN STANDING IN a SHORT TIME for someone unavailable. Someone planned to return. People still didn’t want me to look that important… as a temp or sub. I got mugged over and over again.

How I also Lost Identity in the 1970s

I forgot to mention this also: How many convicts used wives and children to “be me” for THEM on IPs? Many may still be very much connected to past IPs, IP ideas so their convict husbands are still connected even sitting in prison. And also, there may still be convict women with husbands and boyfriends on the outside connected to IPs on paperwork. There could be THOUSANDS of people who actually capitalized on IPs I helped spark as a child. Because I was NOT MAKING MONEY ON IPs… I was very much made an outsider, outcast, lone wolf.

March of the Purple Minions!

It’s the truth for many others also. Those who were not making money in Hollywood due to the connections they didn’t have. Some people just participated on rare occasions and went away again. Some people were in and out all the time and some grew up in it.

And that’s what happened. I helped open doors and then there was an ongoing stampede of people who made the actual productions “come to life” as in lights, cameras, actors, staff… I was revv’d up like a purple minion… but that’s an unpaid group I was in! I was not earning hourly wages visiting to “create spiritual doorways” that gangsters and mafia laughed and walked through and on the “other side” in THEIR WORLDS… they found contacts and money to do things. I had to stay in my very small world, okay?

I may have been in an actual unpaid mafia group however I can’t verify it.