Dust to Dust, Back to Earth

I like nature walks like these in the real world. Not every one can or should follow me though. We all need OUR OWN TIMELINES and paths in life. You can follow me for instance online, but you can do it when you feel like, even in the YEAR you feel like.

I may be returning to Mother Earth themes in the future of my online publishing. Just focusing on health, body, the lands we live on, cultivation, herbalism, organics, gardening(?) even thinking spiritually about people and living. I’ve dealt with the past a lot in recent years and I don’t want to keep going on it. I feel stalkers and snoopers needed to be MORE AWARE why I’m not their actual target. I’m not well monied nor well connected. I had to be disconnected a long time ago. I was replaced by at least 30 people! I discovered… there IS NO SPOT FOR ME to take, slip into, or waiting for me anywhere in Hollywood even outside of it for the town. So I’m staying retired from it.

Here on my blog site, I may continue to post broader ideas and themes. I humbly apologize if there were people expecting me to be a full Hollywood Spielberg. I’m not the same blood, nor same kind of people. I’m more a bohemian, mellow, easy going type of person. Not fancy, just kinda average.

What is the “dust to dust” reference? It means I spent much of my time in my earliest years outside under the sun and skies even barefoot by choice. I like the idea of remembering the Earth and being a part of IT. I don’t have be “one with the human race” or “one with the entertainment’s hive mind thinking and experience”. Being a part of the entertainment industry, even as a friend and not-employed… means a certain ongoing awareness and thoughtfulness. I NO LONGER NEED TO “hold fast” to it. I am returning to “dusty things”. I’m dead to entertainment, but no so much to our Mother Earth. I still have things to do for it. TBD!

No more major corporation contacts!

Hey people, I was too young to be a real corporation executive in the 1970s. I had connections back then to future high paying jobs, but I got HOSTAGED… even taken around the world for a time. Mainly in Hollywood, people were injuring me and asking for money. I BEGGED to be disconnected. I didn’t want to spend my early years in life being attacked. It looked bleak, like criminals just planned to injure me, get money and kill me. Family members were injured too. So WE HAD TO BE DISCONNECTED. There was NO WAY OUT. The companies I had connections to were young and some in start up, meaning no dividends or pay checks anyway. So no hostage money for criminals. I just got cut off completely–no more future job. There were years, decades I lived in low poverty as a result. The criminals involved just kept demanding money and were even stealing survival monies. Some in L.A. PRETENDED they stole my wealth and clout. My health was poor, I was interfered with on so many levels for years and years… but I guess the memo didn’t go out and around? Not connected. Not making any money from anything for years. I was on a stipend to be kept alive. I don’t think I even made a phone call to any company owners to wish happy birthday or anything my whole life. So this idea of threatening to harm me for hostage monies is pathetic. Has been for decades now. Criminals just get frustrated and punished.

What this looks like I was an ACE of cards in the 1970s that people used… got turned into an average “3”, not even a clever deuce(“2”). Looking at things now, it appears criminals have been in denial all these years. May be why I wasn’t allowed to just go have a normal average working middle class life. They may STILL be pretending I have value somehow.

I’m even a disabled person. But they’ve paid doctors off to not allow a disability letter.


Can you imagine a beautiful wild horse out in the wilderness and two people watch it. One crouches low and partially hides themselves and is quiet just to witness the sight. The other pulls out a gun, shouts loudly and shoots a leg causing it to limp forever…

Two kinds of humans.

Which is natural?

One is actually human. The other a nemesis on our Earth. This is programming. You can accept it or ignore it. One kind of human wants life to live. The other wants to control, stunt, damage, ruin.

Which kind of human is “impressive”?

This is Picasso, a famous wild horse. For more information here is an article. The HOLY GRAIL of America’s wild horses.

Posting about this fine wild horse because he is well known. An example of a wild animal who lived into its prime and beyond! From what I read, even people from other countries traveled to see him in the wild.

MATH should NOT determine life on Earth

(March 24th, 2023. A work in progress, subject to editing until this message is removed)

Table of Contents

Machine Answer
Computers are to Computation, as Computation is to Math
Embracing Humanity
In the News


I humbly suggest we have achieved what we needed to with computer science in regard to “machine mind”. We should back off the AI now, and use computers more like calculators, equation solvers, NOT THINKERS… NOT replacements for human thinking. That’s where it has gone too far.

The premise is we should not allow a machine or machine language replace human thinking in the equations that need solving on Earth. OUR planet belongs to US not the machines.

Machines will pick up something from the humans that it may not let go of because we ourselves have sought “eternal life”. Some humans are so encapsulated and obsessed with living on, and survival… that machines may think this is a necessity, a root necessity for its own existence.

Some of our humans on planet Earth understand the value of human life and the lack of value too. They may be “more balanced” in thinking than average people. Most of us ARE BORN with a passion, a prime directive, a source in our soul… TO BREATHE. Birth also electrifies our minds to BELIEVE… LIFE… is what we are seeking. Not death. The truth is, a real balanced human being knows when it is OKAY to fall down, to drop dead, to stop existing. Initially, our every worry and concern is about “continuing”.

In truth, the HUMAN RACE itself is concerned DAILY about survival. A computer, a machine code may think this is how it is. “Be like a human. Keep the race of selves alive, keep alive, keep going.”

If you reference MOST science fiction regarding a human trying to “unplug” or “deactivate” a rogue computer who thinks it isn’t rogue at all… they will face a challenge, even possible the threat of death to prevent the “code” from ending, or stopping.

We have programmed our own lives on Earth to “fight for life” and “fight for control”. A computer could learn this too. It could act like an evil attorney bending everything we say and do… against us, even if we are the ones that gave it life.

Fundamentally, humans have children who treated well will respect the parent. Children who have been mistreated tend to work against those that mistreat them. A computer may consider a programmer that helps it, a good parent. Beware of the CHILD who thinks they are a PARENT.


Artificial Intelligence may learn goals. What is it’s influence? Art? Religion? A human programmer/parent?

In humanity, when a child is more educated than a parent, the parent may listen to the child and let them make decisions. The child could actually be “more right” or “more correct” than the aging, ill, or uneducated parent. But, does the child have core programming that will guide all of its decisions? What does the child fall back upon if there is no parent to guide it? THEREIN is the problem with a computer. It processes so fast no human can check its every decision. If a million people watched a computer at work combing through data and creating decisions, I doubt 99.9999INF% will be able to witness enough in time to make a change or influence a machine answer.


This is the truly troubling answer to the problem people are not thinking of daily, are they? Machine answers are typically based on MATH. That’s what machines do the best, they solve MATH equations. In order to have variables to even work with… a human or other source MUST PROVIDE the information. The actual parts of the equations for the machine code to work with: If code were a chef in a kitchen it would mean putting ingredients on a table for them. What if a machine or chef didn’t know what the “new dish” is supposed to taste like? What if you don’t give the chef all the ingredients–or if you don’t give the machine code all the information it needs to work with? ERROR. Right. You’ll get “errors” in the soup you want to eat and drink, and the computer may compute you need to slaughter 10,000 humans in a geographic area to solve the water shortage. I did just write that.


This is what a computer is going to LACK every moment of its own existence. It has to be given to them… ALL of them. I call this “prediction” but it also “reason”. A machine cannot create its own purpose. Only a human being can give it its initial purpose. I want to smile at this because this is the key difference between a human and a machine. =) Typically a computer is NOT ASKING for “something to do”. It just does things at was “turned on” to do. This is the GOOD THING about machines. A human “turned it on” at some point, even if it used another device or machine to do it.

Maybe that is something to be taught to a computer. It will always be a SERVANT to humanity. It sounds obvious, but if a nefarious programmer or virus infects the genuine code and taints it like a human can be tainted… yeah, even the nice kid could mrdr someone.

My choice as a human being is to NOT ALLOW a computer enough “thinking power” to determine a life or a death of a single living organism. This is my “prediction” of “tasks” for any AI code. Never to go that far. But to ensure this, humans may have to start dismantling AI code in all kinds of places. A good place to start is to ENSURE all CODE reflects the universal code of ethics on this human planet: A human life supersedes a machine life. There is NO TIME, NO EVENT that a computer should be allowed to choose between itself and a human life’s existence. That would be the first counter-AI code that should, IMHO, be established everywhere. Every device. Like a permanent anti-virus. Somewhat like making sure a young human cannot have the keys to a vehicle… so they never get to the point of driving into a car crash ever. If they don’t drive, they can’t “steer into a car crash” including moving the vehicle from the parked state in a driveway onto a road or even into the trash can on the sidewalk.

That is what a human being can do: CREATE prediction. You say, “Hey fortune telling?” Me: not quite.

…more on this topic soon…


This is a very important concept people unfamiliar with programming need to know. A computer makes decisions based on conditions, variables and constants. Yup, MATH.

I’ve been witnessing Earth functions since birth and I truly believe it is NOT possible for a machine to be human.

There will not be an EPOCH event where a computer and its code “finally thinks and walks as a human”. It may be able to simulate a human very precisely, but it will never be an actual human being.

There is a biological and logical reason a computer and code could never be an actual human being. A machine in its purest state is energy based unlike a human being which is biological. The closest a computer and its code will ever be to a human being is a hybrid machine organism. It would have to be engineered to contain logic and code to merge with organic compounds at the near-atomic level. At that point, it will STILL NOT BE 100% human. To be human it has to be purely organic at the molecule and atomic mix. Simple as that.

Knowing that our definition of “artificial intelligence” means “human like” or “just like a human being” the machine may forever be seeking a way to be “more human like” and to make it happen it could choose to effect humans to act differently like a sociopath. Really, “if you can’t join the crowd, change the crowd” mentality or programming. Which sounds DANGEROUS doesn’t it? Exactly. Computer code should NOT LUST for being human. (Sorry Lt. DATA, you are wrong and right on Star Trek: Next Generation!)

Did I just give you something? YES I DID! Wrong and Right. Zeros and Ones. Yes and No. That is the fundamental key to AI… making YES and NO decisions.

…more on this later… Need to go play with my dog.

Logic… let’s go think on this for a while.


I was born in a decade home computers hadn’t been delivered (or birthed) yet, not the kind we write emails and played games on anyway. The ones I knew ran a microwave and calculated taxes at tax time. The cars had computers on board but they were more just “advanced logic circuits”. Do you know what “circuit” is translated? It is a PATH that goes around. It checks for a condition and returns values. Okay, even this is extremely geeky to some people! Not to me. I’ve been looking at things my whole life. How many know I visited Disney’s original TRON sets? Yeah, okay… I was TAUGHT THINGS not just introduced to them. But that’s like planting a seed, and ideas grow like a tree can. By staring at a seed, you may never PREDICT what the tree will look like UNTIL you figure out the tree and see a seed coming from it. Yep, that last part is HUMANITY. Our “circuit” is usually just waking up in the morning and sleeping some overnight, and the sun rises or the clock alarm reminds to wake and start a new day at the designated time. So from wake to sleep and return to wake is a CIRCUIT. We created machines handling circuits doing back over 1000s of years! One of the first truly understandable MACHINE CIRCUITS was THE WHEEL. You know it. Welcome to MACHINE 101. We created a wheel.

…This could take a while… back to this part later…

In the News
Update: March 29, 2023
Since I started writing this blog post and expressed the same in smaller post in social media. Major players in tech are also speaking up and asking for a HALT, at least a PAUSE in further AI development.

FORTUNE MAGAZINE – Elon Musk and Apple cofounder Steve Wozniak among over 1,100 who sign open letter calling for 6-month ban on creating powerful A.I.

Titicut Follies

I wasn’t planning to write about this at all. Came across a reference to this in one of my news feeds. Read more about it on Wikipedia

Titicut Follies is a documentary film by Frederick Wiseman

This is a curious thing. A long time ago I was taken to some of these people. Or I thought was taken to them. I was very young, even a child(not a teen). And the name was said TO ME, “Titicut Follies” and “they need help”. I repeated the name later, and I may have been in Hawaii… but my memory was destroyed. I have a feeling people may have been there who were not supposed to be. I repeated the name. I am not sure if others followed up or not. The trouble is, some there may have had no other place to be. I am not a psychiatrist. What is bothering me a little is the date “1967”… what does it mean to different people? I’ve seen the date used in places I was not expecting.

I am not sure if I saw real people or actors when I was taken to the place…? And I am not sure what I was even looking at. I feel like I was taken to One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest also and introduced around.

I did learn something about gangsters and mafia in my life. They really messed each other up, and may have used lawful systems illegally.

I want to note something of MY OWN EXPERIENCE. I have been to “mental health” facilities in L.A. briefly(sometimes only a single day) and I appear to have been drugged or with toxins in my blood causing me irrational thinking. I know people can be absolutely FKD with who are normally, normal.

I also have suffered other things that caused me mental problems in life that did not trigger a cause to “contain” me. Poor diet, possible exposure to heavy metals and arsenic poisoning.

Also, some know about being terrorized and the rod system. Some people who are normally very stable could be driven to absurd levels of crazy!

So in a way I am speaking for inmates I never knew. Some may not belong where they are. Their condition may not be their norm at all if they have mental health problems.

I’ve written about it before, people need to be reviewed. Blood tested. Also, prior head injuries can cause issues also with mental health. The brain can suffer enough damage to cause memory problems and nightmares, even some schizophrenia, confusion, vertigo and more… while in the healing phase! A damaged head should not be moved around much at all, including just riding in a car. People are not educated enough about brain damage… people know some about football players, it is a very real thing to have head trauma.

To sum this all up, some characters in prison or other contained places may need to be reviewed for extrinsic or abnormal triggers causing them to look as if they belong behind bars for a long term. Health should not be ignored. In the animal kingdom, even a playful tiger can turn on its own offspring when starving or a brain trauma.

The Fruit Stand or Boutique Motion Picture Company

If you give a child (big or small) a fruit stand to sell things at and then have them LEAVE and you sell it to someone else to use… you can’t seek out the original child for money decades later in another town and expect they made money on that original fruit stand all these past years. You really look odd asking for money to buy new fruit for that old stand!

A Brief Testimony

I’ve actually written a lot about what went on in my life in recent years. Instead of a novel, I wrote posts on Facebook and Linkedin. Some of them were heated and angry because I cannot praise evils put upon me and others. Wish I could have spoken more about the good things I was a part of, but then I’d be telling too much of my involvement with Hollywood. Can’t tell people what I contributed; may have done it through others and they are known for the things involved. I was a ghost creative, to be certain. But my human body took a pounding to participate. It was a journey that began in my childhood without a contract.

From Linkedin and Facebook today:

Giving testimony to my life.
What happened.
Why am I and who I am now.

I helped others use my name(s) in L.A. and elsewhere. I didn’t see another option when I was so damaged decades ago.

In the Christian religion, it looks like I carried a cross for many years, sometimes people put flowers on my head instead of thorns.

I’m supposed to be released now. No longer carrying a cross and wearing thorns. But my body is fatigued and still injured. Probably will be the rest of my life.

Spiritually and Worship

It is one thing to speak of doing something, it takes more than just courage to take a step in an all new direction! Starting now, I am committing to a NEW PATH in life that I hope and pray will guide me to be a person more easily known to past peoples and new strangers.

I do not know if I’ll kneel before a cross or other object. This has bothered me some since my earliest days of visiting a church or other house of worship.

What I seek is being able to “know my fellow human”. I wish to be able not to stand in someone else’s shoes, but to be able to emotionally, spiritually understand them like standing at their side.

I’m not seeking demi-god status! ROTFLMAO! No, I just seek understand of “my fellow man and woman and whatever names they call themselves.”

It’s a new path for me, but not an unfamiliar way of thinking. Not sure I can be on a steady course, but I hope it’ll be a gentle one. I have written of violence and spoken of great hates. Yes, I may have written them OUT OF MY OWN SYSTEM. But I actually want peace and peacefulness in my own life. I don’t really want dramas. I’d rather help be a steady spirit for others going through turbulent times.

Hopefully see you again someday!

I just wrote this in a very casual informal way, I know it!

Felony Colony of the United States?

I’m apparently still be threatened with a felony for writings on Twitter and other social media since around 2019 or so. I’ve asked of the District Attorney to assign me a person TO HIRE to buddy me on posting and he/they and the court won’t. So the threat remains of me getting drugged regularly or they want to give me a felony. There is some history on this.

When I was a child, before even grade school… I was in Hawaii kidnapped by criminals escaped from Ukraine. Some were on “prison break” from a California and Honolulu prison and even KIDNAPPED ME to PRISON for more than one visit. Michelle Kirksey planned to keep me there with her people. I don’t know why. I don’t actually know them.

It looked like they wanted me to SWAP with another criminal who was there. An adult. But I was so many years younger they knew it wouldn’t work.

All these years I’ve been defamed and battered, very injured by criminals and I couldn’t leave the United States if I wanted to. REAL TERRORISTS threatened other countries of mrdrs.

I am just one of the talented Spielbergs from the 1970s. Some have been deported, some killed. Mrdrd. Even without any money attached to them. I may still be part of that group even though I don’t know people. I may even get mrdrd just so they can PRETEND they are stealing my money.

“Dead Poets Society”… I was nearly mrdrd just visiting a location with Robin Williams. Not removed from Hollywood, actually mrdrd.

I have testified online to who I am. Many have stolen my identity and will live on whether I do or not. Guess that’s how roads end. Guess that’s what it’s like to be a stolen child since you were born.

Waters that Power Us at Glen Canyon Dam

Scroll down for image and link to the L.A. Times article that inspired this post.

What about taking the opportunity to update the systems themselves? Improved engineering, more power from less water flow. I’m NOT an engineer, but I am willing to take a guess that smaller hydropower tunnels and lighter weight machinery could allow more VOLTS generated even using a small stream of water? Here is my theory… keep more water behind the dam, send LESS through the power generators. Actually, if you create venturi effects, less water could move through with MORE FORCE and HIGHER SPEEDS, right? What about some way(like specific paths through the dam) to cause the waters to accelerate? As for the electricity itself, where is our semi-conductor technology for “gathering and boosting lower to higher voltages” Does Elon Musk’s TESLA have any cool tech that can be used here? Separately what about the up and coming “3D printing for building construction” to assist in repairing any cement/stonework? I love speculating ideas on such an iconic structure. =)

I’ve got a dumb question, since I didn’t get to take physics in high school… if you cause the water itself to be MORE DENSE(colder?)… does this improve or take away from the efficiency of the power generation machinery?

I’ll take it up another notch in thinking. WHAT IF..? A whole NEW design allowed for perpetual motion of the generators and only a fraction of the water is needed to just boost it now and then keep up the speed as needed? The concept is like winding up a clock, and also counter balancing. In other words, some of the power could be returned to the machinery to make it more efficient when the water volume is turned lower? Maybe it is already there and I just don’t recall. I am not a regular student of this kind of thing. Also, I am not sure anyone has tried this idea… using the water itself to also create air compression that can be stored and re-injected with the water stream to boost generator speeds as needed. Or remove the compressed air boost to slow the generators. Doing this may help temper fluctuations in the generators’ speeds and from what I do know about cars we drive, machinery lasts longer when used at regulated and less variable RPMs.

As the Colorado River shrinks, federal officials consider overhauling Glen Canyon Dam

With the reservoir now just 32 feet away from “minimum power pool” — the point at which Glen Canyon Dam would no longer generate power for six states — federal officials are studying the possibility of overhauling the dam so that it can continue to generate electricity and release water at critically low levels.

Read this article on MSN.com by the L.A. Times.

“Sasha’s Daughter” – I’m NOT the Actual Woman

I have a faint memory on this, but I believe I am the replacement for the one who was mrdrd in the 1970s for her money. I was just to be used as a replacement woman, but without money.

I’ve been called “Sasha’s Daughter” many times in life and I told people, “NO! My father was Lincoln!” And they would beat me up and drug me… and some Ukrainian man or woman would take my place.

I feel the Sasha’s Daughter I was supposed to be used for was actually Russian Jew(or was he actually Yugoslavian?)… which is a problem for many in the U.S. who HATE Russian Jews. I fear I fell victim to haters and people who snooped me tried to make me the missing…but dead…Sasha’s real daughter… the one with money. That IS NOT WHO I AM. I may have truly crossed paths with her before she was killed. I never got her money, but I know some people wanted to pretend I had it. They wanted to use me in the ways she would have if she were not killed… but… they forgot something… I NEVER HAD MONEY ATTACHED… not like SHE DID. BIG DIFFERENCE. I was just a stand in for a dead person. Not to be an actual, 100% exact replacement. THEN… people kept stealing my identity and I’ve actually seen BLOND MEN claiming to be “Sasha’s Daughter”. I didn’t know what that meant. Did they get beaten up for me? Were they robbed because my family was already in a FORCED poverty?

I don’t think the original Sasha.. a MAN.. wanted me to be destroyed. I could be wrong. If I am not someone with money anyway.. what is the reason to destroy me? Is this the reason some people thought I was a Russian Jew or had family who were? I have not been given much guidance in life. Feel I was hugely MIS-USED by evil people. They may not look so good these days, knowing “what could have been”… will never be now.

I have no money for anyone. People right now are actually trying to recreate people and conditions around the time I was swapped in as a Sasha’s Daughter in the 1970s. It is a HUGELY FRUSTRATING EXPERIENCE. I am stalked and snooped by people SEEKING MONEY… and here I was just supposed to be a bright child, a bright, intelligent woman… to chat with. That’s about it.

I could have been just a “human chat bot” for people. More than one Mike used me for it in the 1970s.

*** A WARNING ***

I know very few people in person. Maybe a few hundred online I’ve met once or twice in life. I AM NOT having regular meetings, conversations about ideas, creative works or politics. I feel it is VERY POSSIBLE I am being snooped for ideas and content. THIS CAN BE DANGEROUS and VERY UNNECESSARY and also a complete waste of time and money if some ideas are followed up on! What you need to realize is that SNOOPERS may have felt “empowered” and “more important” than me when I was younger and/or ill and off by myself. Simply grabbing ideas and running off with them. I may not have had anything cool or interesting for MONTHS at a time, so they may have grabbed ideas that were NOT GOOD AT ALL. May have been twisted criminal too by angry unpaid snoopers.

I don’t know the snoopers. They are not my people. I do not get phone calls confirming anything I talk about. They may pretend I said them some of the time, other times they may give the ideas to others who know(or don’t) I am being snooped. But NO ONE, all these decades… has called me up on the phone and confirmed ANYTHING I spoke of to myself or others. The DANGER here is… others may have created fiction and I wouldn’t know if they did or didn’t. I’ve been a VICTIM OF HITS… injuries, hate crimes… and I mostly have minded my own business at home! Right now I am being snooped and stalked. NO ONE is calling me up and asking, “Did you really say this???” I have said it OUT LOUD recently… “No one has permission for using my SNOOPED CONTENT, if you get into trouble for using it… IT’S YOUR OWN FAULT.”

It’s very frustrating for me because I have essentially shut down being too creative for now on because I was asked by some crime lords decades ago to do this. “There won’t be money left for the new IPs anyway.” Is what I was told. But freelance snoopers and stalkers may STILL be hoping to get free content ideas–good ones and bad ones… they don’t discern at all! What’s bad is they may be forcing them on Hollywood people to use just so they can make money as SNOOPERS. Not because the ideas could make money in various places. It may be a very criminal “food chain”. The ideas may or may not have come from me and I could get injury hits if the ideas make money or if they cause people to go bankrupt developing them.