Titicut Follies

I wasn’t planning to write about this at all. Came across a reference to this in one of my news feeds. Read more about it on Wikipedia

Titicut Follies is a documentary film by Frederick Wiseman

This is a curious thing. A long time ago I was taken to some of these people. Or I thought was taken to them. I was very young, even a child(not a teen). And the name was said TO ME, “Titicut Follies” and “they need help”. I repeated the name later, and I may have been in Hawaii… but my memory was destroyed. I have a feeling people may have been there who were not supposed to be. I repeated the name. I am not sure if others followed up or not. The trouble is, some there may have had no other place to be. I am not a psychiatrist. What is bothering me a little is the date “1967”… what does it mean to different people? I’ve seen the date used in places I was not expecting.

I am not sure if I saw real people or actors when I was taken to the place…? And I am not sure what I was even looking at. I feel like I was taken to One Flew Over the Cuckoos Nest also and introduced around.

I did learn something about gangsters and mafia in my life. They really messed each other up, and may have used lawful systems illegally.

I want to note something of MY OWN EXPERIENCE. I have been to “mental health” facilities in L.A. briefly(sometimes only a single day) and I appear to have been drugged or with toxins in my blood causing me irrational thinking. I know people can be absolutely FKD with who are normally, normal.

I also have suffered other things that caused me mental problems in life that did not trigger a cause to “contain” me. Poor diet, possible exposure to heavy metals and arsenic poisoning.

Also, some know about being terrorized and the rod system. Some people who are normally very stable could be driven to absurd levels of crazy!

So in a way I am speaking for inmates I never knew. Some may not belong where they are. Their condition may not be their norm at all if they have mental health problems.

I’ve written about it before, people need to be reviewed. Blood tested. Also, prior head injuries can cause issues also with mental health. The brain can suffer enough damage to cause memory problems and nightmares, even some schizophrenia, confusion, vertigo and more… while in the healing phase! A damaged head should not be moved around much at all, including just riding in a car. People are not educated enough about brain damage… people know some about football players, it is a very real thing to have head trauma.

To sum this all up, some characters in prison or other contained places may need to be reviewed for extrinsic or abnormal triggers causing them to look as if they belong behind bars for a long term. Health should not be ignored. In the animal kingdom, even a playful tiger can turn on its own offspring when starving or a brain trauma.

Was I a Mafia Mother?

(from my Linkedin Post “Compensation For?”)

Gunna just have to accept–to myself–I was a “Hollywood regular stand in” for others… and never adopted(paid) to do it there. Others just made sure I had survival money to get me through it all because of the hits I may have taken FOR OTHERS. I ended up being a hit magnet?!! But remember this too for me/us… I paid with my very messed up lifetime already. If anything, PEOPLE OWE ME MORE MONEY. Not the other way around. I’ve had to live a RUINED LIFE. I’m not suing nor invoicing, and “adults” should NOT be sending their small or full grown “children” for money or gifts.

It appears I was a MOTHER for mafia and gangster children. Responsibility got put on me for things THEY DID or SET UP or signed agreements on.

People can and will go on without me. And I need to be retired from helping strangers. Most people I ever dealt with in L.A. even Honolulu appeared to be strangers to me. I didn’t really know them.

I actually believe I’m part of a group of “poor Yugoslavians” that people were supposed to protect and take care of–even minimally, not rob and abuse!

What’s profound is that responsibilities appeared to be put upon me before I was even out of diapers. I’ve had this weight on me my whole life… to help people I didn’t even really know. The distant relative to false surrogates? I’m not sure who set this all up or how it got put together. I know human traffickers were involved. I believe they were Ukrainian-involved, which also connected me to India and Korean peoples and more.