It’s not a simple fix, please be patient with yourself.
Disclaimer: I am not a psychologist with training nor credentials. I’ve just studied people my whole life and had a conversation the other day with someone discharged from military. Thought I’d publish it here as a first draft first and potentially put it edited on my web site HumanBounce.com on a military individual specific page. Whether people admit to it or not, I have contributed some famous military/armed forces centric and themed fictional stories for film and television. I’ve been a ghost creative and Hollywood people don’t really know me because I did not mingle. I lived away from L.A. except for a few years in life.
Children are born of another human being, a peaceful solitary life. It was a calm, warm, soft, soothing, very buffered life in the suspension within a womb. Our eyes are closed, our ears not fully developed. We focus on growth and living itself.
The moment of shock comes when it is time to be birthed. This was our first major battle. NOISE! CONFUSION! Lack of clarity! Our bodies in a LOT OF PAIN with the sensations of AIR, LOUDNESS, EVERYTHING FEELS UNFAMLIAR and we FIGHT to BE IN IT.
Men and women in our country’s military are brave people. They have been trained to perform well in the most adverse situations the world can give. They must have had a strong constitution within to even create a passion for warring and defense on the scale of community, state and national.
A military mind is a very fine, well trained mind, but with that training comes a lot of programming for built in second nature. What the average citizen may not realize is that programming may be an overlay upon a mind that has been with the person since birth. Some military people can assimilate the knowledge and training and it becomes a part of them, almost the fabric of their DNA. Others it is a constant overlord, or deeply rooted education in their mind and they are just very tuned in and practiced with it.
What can go wrong?
Even the best of minds can have a snap, big or small. A snap is a moment or a time when you question yourself and even have a strong desire to be the opposite of what’s bothering you. A single situation can cause this and the snap can last years, possibly decades. A snap can also occur when someone is pushed beyond a certain comfort zone for a long time. A snap can be a scar in someone’s personality that may take a long time to work around and heal.
What can go right?
Knowing you got scarred. Admitting to it. This is as important as identifying an open wound on your body and making sure it gets cleaned up, stitched, and tended to for however long it takes to heal. This may include not stretching, not running, not swimming in dirty waters, careful daily cleaning, healing herbs and ointments and follow ups with professional health care people. It may include education yourself on what it is and how to care for it for the best and fastest healing. The human soul needs this too. A military mind is still tough, and can make a change in a split second if necessary. When it comes to healing an emotional ailment though, patience and quality care is very important.
We can’t ignore how finely trained a military mind is. If it has a break or a snap, it needs good, thorough healing. It took a lot of years, maybe even decades to make a good one. Shouldn’t expect an overnight healing. If carefully healed, remade, rebuilt, it should be better than ever!
What to expect of yourself? Dear military mind, can you place yourself back in the womb? Are you able to take yourself to a safe place in thinking and keep your mind in a soft, comforted, suspension? Can you bring back your non-military mind? You do not have to share your thoughts. Take your mind and body HOME, to your original HOME. The one that can’t ever be taken away again. The place of solitude and fortitude. Exist there. Return there. Then slowly remember a non-military mind. If you can’t remember yours, your healing may need external help of a professional.
Finding Home Within
The importance of finding home is to set your anchor in this world, and in your life.
You don’t have to buy it. You need to FIND IT.
If you can’t remember home, which is your core self or deepest self image, you may have to create multiple sessions of rekindling that spirit… that spark… that was you.. when you were the most proud of yourself.
Some say buying your own home, owning it… is a sense of PRIDE.
You don’t have to own a space or a physical place. Just own yourself!
Own what makes you, your own castle. Or palace. Or fortress.
What are you made of? Who are you?