Life Puzzle

What is a “life puzzle”? How simple or complicated our lives are!

What I’d like to share is that we all have a puzzle to deal with the day we are born. It could be a simple life ahead or a very complicated one. What makes it complicated? Here is my theory: How many people you interact with in your lifetime. I say this because each person has to be dealt with in an individualized way and has at least one piece of your puzzle: They know you in their way.

This is a art mosaic of glass tiles on wood by artist “ShelaghJaneMosaics” that I found online. I picked this one because the content illustrates the idea of portions and pieces of our lives. Some of it can be very straightforward and obvious, other parts more abstract. It has elements of various emotions which could translate to life experiences such as events or human beings. “Puzzle” can also mean “confusion to be sorted out” and something like this image shows it. It even has peaceful and also hot colors reminding us of good and bad times. NOTE: I do not know the artist at all, and I am not presenting this image as a form of advertisement.

This was not something I was planning to write about. It came to mind because my own life looks simple, and it really is NOT AT ALL. I’ve had to figure it out myself: What is making my life complicated?

What is a puzzle? Essentially, it is a sum of pieces that come together to form a conclusion. A jigsaw puzzle is made of a single picture cut into unique-looking pieces.

Our own lives are a big puzzle, and it can take decades to figure out the “big picture” that is your own life. What the “complete view” of who you are in the big world we live in, the planet we are on. It can be a puzzle of big pieces like a pizza or a huge mosaic of thousands of small fragments of various sizes. How does your “life puzzle” look? What makes you, YOU?

This is a pepperoni pizza! Some people have lives this simple. Yes! Think of it as flat, round, not a lot of ingredients, no one piece is the same… some is saucy, spicy, smooth, crunchy… I found this image on the internet and it belongs to Zionsville Pizza. I never ate there, looks good though! Please send me an email if you tried it out?

If I can give advice on this, it would be to try to understand the pieces you think you know well. Those are: 1) what you need to accomplish daily, weekly, yearly, and long term, 2) who is involved that matters to you. Then you can think about how it all fits together to help you keep moving forward and 3) what pieces are missing. Thinking is good, keeping your own notes in a journal is GREAT. You do not need to be a professional writer to sort out your own thoughts about things.

I wish you well in learning your “life puzzle” and my hope you’ll work on it to help you understand yourself and the pieces that do and don’t belong to you!

I feel like an old lady writing about knowledge and wisdom for younger people. I am old enough to do this now authentically! Ha! I welcome you to read my other writings also. I hope they can help you find your own personal, inner freedoms even if you stuck at home, or in a boring job, or just in a rut.

Humans that Bridge Gaps

Railway Viaduct, Newport, Co. Mayo, Ireland was once a railway carrying steam trains, now is just a pedestrian bridge.

People in general are like bridges, also known as personal and professional connections. Myself and others that I know do feel like a bridge(s) and were controversial in that some wanted us, some needed us… some knew are connections were built very incorrectly and used badly too. Some helped me be a bridge some tried to “blow me up”.

Now I personally am authentically old(or well used, even with repairs along the way) and others need to take my place. You can’t mrdr me though, I am a human being who is simply RETIRED.. FULLY RETIRED NOW.

The analogy is… the “pieces of land” this bridge connected are eroded. This is not a “good place” to keep using or crossing upon. “Just go upstream or downstream a few miles and build a new bridge”.

Human retirees are like old retired bridges. Maybe originally they held up vehicles and many workers crossed them in a day… in their older ages birds land on them, grass and mosses too. A random sheep or dog and trail walkers cross. People even stand on them to enjoy the views or write poetry and paint pictures.

Old bridges stay around if they were useful and help newer people appreciate history. They may be made of good stones, or were built by a community that kept it working for generations. Old humans are like this too.

Lost and Found Bridges

I discovered early in life, some bridges that people crossed had different names to different people and the actual bridge may not have had a name for itself! Do you know how much trouble this would cause if people got the wrong directions and wrong names???

The message here is not every human being is YOUR BRIDGE to others, but they may be important to people you know. Big and small, short and tall, old and new, with or without a name.

KSPL a Non-Funded, Not-Licensed Radio Station

A long time ago in the 1970s, KSPL went live to a small audience and was repeated to multiple cities and states in the United States of America. Originally it was a self-funded, “public radio” that didn’t have a call sign or any real organization. Repeaters were “pirate radio operators” and continued the signal beyond its original 500ft.

By 1974, KSPL was a sought after radio signal attracting fans from all walks of life. It wasn’t funded and it received enough attention to get some tough protection initially, but its popularity caused fierce competition.

Over the decades the signal has been disrupted and boosted and the staff has survived multiple terrorist attacks. It was decided early on to keep KSPL out of the news media for the additional safety of the staff and friends involved.

Today in 2023, KSPL is still a self-funded broadcast to locals in California. There are NO formal agreements for content use transmitted and received. PIRATE RADIO OPERATORS may be using mechanical and also HUMAN repeaters and fraud knockoffs. Typical real content for KSPL are ordinary people living in retirement. They are non-criminal, non-mafia, non-gang affiliated. It is known that KSPL has a non-published signal frequency and is NOT responsible for criminal repeaters.

Please note: I am not admitting nor denying if I was or am part of the staff.

Flying an Airplane High in the Sky With and Without Perversions

Which one is the most cost effective and runs on time with the greatest overall satisfaction?

The one that does everything that has been planned and practiced, observed and refined?

or

The one that encourages careless errors, disobeying the flight path and ground control advice, even ignoring the weather forecast? With enough perversions, the plane may not even make it to the airport it was supposed to get to. If that plane has experienced enough perversions, it may even just explode in mid flight and no one fully understand how that happened.

This is actually a perverted writing post. It does not follow normal standards of structure. The simplest error is that the content is given in opposite order of the descriptive title.

Ask the Janitor

Honestly, if society does not want to pay someone to be responsible, you cannot make them be.

For instance, if the janitor is running the corporation while mopping floors… They may never get real information and people and clout… To make good decisions. They can only be a friend to chat with.

I am NOW FULLY RETIRED from even being a “friend” of a corporation. I don’t want to talk to people about company business. Or politics. It just burned me.

“ANGRY ME” – Mis-Identified Too Often in the 1970s+, I was not hired.

I just put something together after all this time. I want people to read this. I pray it helps people figure out WHAT HAPPENED.

ANGRY ME. Here is why.

The name “Steven Spielberg” was created by me IN FRONT OF M. Spielberg when I was VERY VERY YOUNG. It was my new professional name. But I had NO INTENTION of being a porn star. I was identified as a talented co-director even in childhood…but they KEPT ME AWAY FROM PORN. THEY DID NOT WANT ME TO BE A PORN DIRECTOR. They knew me. I guess others misread things.

M. Spielberg and her people likely created a MALE DIRECTOR off the name to replace me right away.

DUE TO TERRORISM… the people who knew me personally… probably were terrorized as I was also in the 1970s.

Those were not my own people. I was kidnapped to be around them.

I strongly encourage people to find out if Universal Pictures bought out porn producers in the 1970s. Their studio or their group, and/or their content and intellectual properties. The difficulty is… I was NOT actually part of the deal. If I was, I’d know a lot of people and they’d know me. I’d also be working regularly and making money. If I was retired, I would have had a verifiable WORK HISTORY.

Bye Bye to Hollywood!

I wish to say to Los Angelenos and Hollywood-ians and entertainment business people… thanks for having me around at all. Allowing me to visit at all! I am sorry it was not what I thought it would be. I do still enjoy motion pictures and tv programs you’ve created, produced etc. So keep on, keep on! 🙂

If ever I am in Hollywood on a back lot wandering around… please don’t hit me on the head… remind me to “go home”. I have been drugged in the past and didn’t know what I was doing!

Adding this on 7/26/23: I’m still waving! Reminding people I don’t have my own team, I am TOO SMALL to return. People who did know me decades ago have retired or other. Just not involved anymore themselves. Blessings to them also!

Analogy of the Power Over Water

A single man or army cannot go to the OCEAN or a GREAT RIVER OR LAKE and believe they can “overcome it” or “control it all”.

A single man or army who goes to a small stream and stops it, walks away and never comes back… may have cut off the livelihood of all kinds of animals downstream where there was a POND and even small waterfall.

If you want a brain tease out of this… Which animal is stronger, or more important? The bear dying of dehydration or a fish destined to live years in the lake?

More Balance in Life for Better Household Wealth

Sounds kinda preachy! What is cool about this is I’ve SEEN THIS WORK FOR OTHERS. I didn’t get this for myself in life, so I want to share what I learned.

A more balanced society would have MEN WORKING more often. Their place AT WORK.. harder work(labor, administration, etc in work places such as industrial, agriculture and business)… than what the WIFE (male or female) is doing to care for the home(even alternate work or support work for offices). I SOUND REALLY OLD FASHIONED… but this system works.

Then if they have a child or children, their own or adopted… they have another liability and support “under their home roof”. The WIFE..(male or female) can be close to home to watch the upbringing of the next generation.

It sounds OLD FASHIONED! I KNOW IT! But it DOES WORK.

Notice that the “life work”(the board or plank or table) isn’t too much for the two to handle themselves. Together they are not overloaded. This illustration is including GRAVITY and a “board of weight”. The way to push more weight to the other is to lift one side higher.

The problem that occurs is a pair of people who are married… male and female or other mix… is that they are NOT holding their end up. IT TAKES BOTH PEOPLE in a marriage to HOLD IT UP. If one puts too much weight on the other… it causes stress.. too much unshared stress.. and causes all kinds of breakdowns.

Criminal MEN… are ones who sit at home and sabotage their partner. THEN wonder what happened to their household wealth. It is a BIGGER PROBLEM if the stronger person in the household is NOT working hard to their potential and need. If the weaker person is “at home” and not doing as much “heavy lifting” it is understandable and still sustainable.

There is a reason I humbly suggest MEN to be in work places requiring strength and endurance, even physical size. Yes, some women fit for this too. The DNA, physical separation of MAN and WOMAN… is that MAN is known for STRENGTH and PROTECTION and WOMAN is designed for nurturing and new birth. MAN AND WOMAN can both be talented, intelligent and wealthy.. no limitations on “earthly gains”. But the human bodies by design have intended uses. It is never to say a DNA or “female association” cannot be a leader and strong… it is just typical of the humanity that the DNA MALE has a greater physical potential to survive tougher environmental and health conditions.

What this looks like.. is that a pair of people… whatever their gender associations… is to choose the tougher one for workplaces and the less tough one for softer tasks. Even if both work from home or in professional and industrial spaces. Then at all times you have a LEAD and a SUPPORT. It can actually go back and forth between the stronger and the weaker. This kind of relationship made and carried on properly should create a stronger “team” or “unit” for gaining and protecting wealth. It doesn’t matter the level of wealth.

In my childhood… I came face to face with people from other countries who did NOT understand families and family units and how they work together. They must have been escaped criminals who did not know the value of an “honest living”. Their whole focus was to steal money and assets, and traffick people in their own favor.

How NOT a Money Person I Was for Hollywood!

I’ve written on this before. It needs to be very clear to Los Angelenos and San Diegans… even Honolulu’s WHY I will NEVER EVER BE BACK to L.A. for a film or tv production.

I had to get enough memory back to be reminded of WHAT HAPPENED when I showed up in L.A. to help as a professional film person. I did get ganged up and and pushed around and away from people I needed to talk to… then coerced to helping complete strangers. It didn’t end well FOR THEM! I think some people got arrested outside of my view and awareness. IT IS NOT WORTH IT TO ME NOR PEOPLE IN L.A. for me to show up. I AM NOT GANGSTER ENOUGH and that’s who needs to be in those kinds of positions. I NEVER HAD ENOUGH OF MY OWN “PEOPLE” OR “STAFF”. I needed a TEAM of PEOPLE before I even visited studios a long time ago. I DID NOT.

I’ve looked like a ONE-OFF freelancer most of my life. The gangsters that knew of me… did THEIR OWN THING with their own groups of peoples.

If I had showed up and people were waiting for me, ready to “get my back” whenever necessary and BRING ME UP TO SPEED and introduce me and others to me… it wouldn’t have been a big deal to make a “cameo” appearance as a real or fraud producer. Honestly!

I was willing to put in time and effort to build a resume since the 1970s, but I believe I was not supposed to at all. I am disappointed. L.A. has it’s own thing going on and always has!

So now you know why I was misyoked and mislabeled so long. I was standing in for others and not connected well enough to be a REAL PART of the filmmaking machine of L.A. I was not that needed!

So thanks, and gotta be gone! 🙂