The Fruit Stand or Boutique Motion Picture Company

If you give a child (big or small) a fruit stand to sell things at and then have them LEAVE and you sell it to someone else to use… you can’t seek out the original child for money decades later in another town and expect they made money on that original fruit stand all these past years. You really look odd asking for money to buy new fruit for that old stand!

A Brief Testimony

I’ve actually written a lot about what went on in my life in recent years. Instead of a novel, I wrote posts on Facebook and Linkedin. Some of them were heated and angry because I cannot praise evils put upon me and others. Wish I could have spoken more about the good things I was a part of, but then I’d be telling too much of my involvement with Hollywood. Can’t tell people what I contributed; may have done it through others and they are known for the things involved. I was a ghost creative, to be certain. But my human body took a pounding to participate. It was a journey that began in my childhood without a contract.

From Linkedin and Facebook today:

Testifying.
Giving testimony to my life.
What happened.
Why am I and who I am now.

I helped others use my name(s) in L.A. and elsewhere. I didn’t see another option when I was so damaged decades ago.

In the Christian religion, it looks like I carried a cross for many years, sometimes people put flowers on my head instead of thorns.

I’m supposed to be released now. No longer carrying a cross and wearing thorns. But my body is fatigued and still injured. Probably will be the rest of my life.

Spiritually and Worship

It is one thing to speak of doing something, it takes more than just courage to take a step in an all new direction! Starting now, I am committing to a NEW PATH in life that I hope and pray will guide me to be a person more easily known to past peoples and new strangers.

I do not know if I’ll kneel before a cross or other object. This has bothered me some since my earliest days of visiting a church or other house of worship.

What I seek is being able to “know my fellow human”. I wish to be able not to stand in someone else’s shoes, but to be able to emotionally, spiritually understand them like standing at their side.

I’m not seeking demi-god status! ROTFLMAO! No, I just seek understand of “my fellow man and woman and whatever names they call themselves.”

It’s a new path for me, but not an unfamiliar way of thinking. Not sure I can be on a steady course, but I hope it’ll be a gentle one. I have written of violence and spoken of great hates. Yes, I may have written them OUT OF MY OWN SYSTEM. But I actually want peace and peacefulness in my own life. I don’t really want dramas. I’d rather help be a steady spirit for others going through turbulent times.

Hopefully see you again someday!

I just wrote this in a very casual informal way, I know it!

Felony Colony of the United States?

I’m apparently still be threatened with a felony for writings on Twitter and other social media since around 2019 or so. I’ve asked of the District Attorney to assign me a person TO HIRE to buddy me on posting and he/they and the court won’t. So the threat remains of me getting drugged regularly or they want to give me a felony. There is some history on this.

When I was a child, before even grade school… I was in Hawaii kidnapped by criminals escaped from Ukraine. Some were on “prison break” from a California and Honolulu prison and even KIDNAPPED ME to PRISON for more than one visit. Michelle Kirksey planned to keep me there with her people. I don’t know why. I don’t actually know them.

It looked like they wanted me to SWAP with another criminal who was there. An adult. But I was so many years younger they knew it wouldn’t work.

All these years I’ve been defamed and battered, very injured by criminals and I couldn’t leave the United States if I wanted to. REAL TERRORISTS threatened other countries of mrdrs.

I am just one of the talented Spielbergs from the 1970s. Some have been deported, some killed. Mrdrd. Even without any money attached to them. I may still be part of that group even though I don’t know people. I may even get mrdrd just so they can PRETEND they are stealing my money.

“Dead Poets Society”… I was nearly mrdrd just visiting a location with Robin Williams. Not removed from Hollywood, actually mrdrd.

I have testified online to who I am. Many have stolen my identity and will live on whether I do or not. Guess that’s how roads end. Guess that’s what it’s like to be a stolen child since you were born.

Waters that Power Us at Glen Canyon Dam

Scroll down for image and link to the L.A. Times article that inspired this post.

What about taking the opportunity to update the systems themselves? Improved engineering, more power from less water flow. I’m NOT an engineer, but I am willing to take a guess that smaller hydropower tunnels and lighter weight machinery could allow more VOLTS generated even using a small stream of water? Here is my theory… keep more water behind the dam, send LESS through the power generators. Actually, if you create venturi effects, less water could move through with MORE FORCE and HIGHER SPEEDS, right? What about some way(like specific paths through the dam) to cause the waters to accelerate? As for the electricity itself, where is our semi-conductor technology for “gathering and boosting lower to higher voltages” Does Elon Musk’s TESLA have any cool tech that can be used here? Separately what about the up and coming “3D printing for building construction” to assist in repairing any cement/stonework? I love speculating ideas on such an iconic structure. =)

I’ve got a dumb question, since I didn’t get to take physics in high school… if you cause the water itself to be MORE DENSE(colder?)… does this improve or take away from the efficiency of the power generation machinery?

I’ll take it up another notch in thinking. WHAT IF..? A whole NEW design allowed for perpetual motion of the generators and only a fraction of the water is needed to just boost it now and then keep up the speed as needed? The concept is like winding up a clock, and also counter balancing. In other words, some of the power could be returned to the machinery to make it more efficient when the water volume is turned lower? Maybe it is already there and I just don’t recall. I am not a regular student of this kind of thing. Also, I am not sure anyone has tried this idea… using the water itself to also create air compression that can be stored and re-injected with the water stream to boost generator speeds as needed. Or remove the compressed air boost to slow the generators. Doing this may help temper fluctuations in the generators’ speeds and from what I do know about cars we drive, machinery lasts longer when used at regulated and less variable RPMs.

As the Colorado River shrinks, federal officials consider overhauling Glen Canyon Dam

With the reservoir now just 32 feet away from “minimum power pool” — the point at which Glen Canyon Dam would no longer generate power for six states — federal officials are studying the possibility of overhauling the dam so that it can continue to generate electricity and release water at critically low levels.

Read this article on MSN.com by the L.A. Times.

“Sasha’s Daughter” – I’m NOT the Actual Woman

I have a faint memory on this, but I believe I am the replacement for the one who was mrdrd in the 1970s for her money. I was just to be used as a replacement woman, but without money.

I’ve been called “Sasha’s Daughter” many times in life and I told people, “NO! My father was Lincoln!” And they would beat me up and drug me… and some Ukrainian man or woman would take my place.

I feel the Sasha’s Daughter I was supposed to be used for was actually Russian Jew(or was he actually Yugoslavian?)… which is a problem for many in the U.S. who HATE Russian Jews. I fear I fell victim to haters and people who snooped me tried to make me the missing…but dead…Sasha’s real daughter… the one with money. That IS NOT WHO I AM. I may have truly crossed paths with her before she was killed. I never got her money, but I know some people wanted to pretend I had it. They wanted to use me in the ways she would have if she were not killed… but… they forgot something… I NEVER HAD MONEY ATTACHED… not like SHE DID. BIG DIFFERENCE. I was just a stand in for a dead person. Not to be an actual, 100% exact replacement. THEN… people kept stealing my identity and I’ve actually seen BLOND MEN claiming to be “Sasha’s Daughter”. I didn’t know what that meant. Did they get beaten up for me? Were they robbed because my family was already in a FORCED poverty?

I don’t think the original Sasha.. a MAN.. wanted me to be destroyed. I could be wrong. If I am not someone with money anyway.. what is the reason to destroy me? Is this the reason some people thought I was a Russian Jew or had family who were? I have not been given much guidance in life. Feel I was hugely MIS-USED by evil people. They may not look so good these days, knowing “what could have been”… will never be now.

I have no money for anyone. People right now are actually trying to recreate people and conditions around the time I was swapped in as a Sasha’s Daughter in the 1970s. It is a HUGELY FRUSTRATING EXPERIENCE. I am stalked and snooped by people SEEKING MONEY… and here I was just supposed to be a bright child, a bright, intelligent woman… to chat with. That’s about it.

I could have been just a “human chat bot” for people. More than one Mike used me for it in the 1970s.

*** A WARNING ***

I know very few people in person. Maybe a few hundred online I’ve met once or twice in life. I AM NOT having regular meetings, conversations about ideas, creative works or politics. I feel it is VERY POSSIBLE I am being snooped for ideas and content. THIS CAN BE DANGEROUS and VERY UNNECESSARY and also a complete waste of time and money if some ideas are followed up on! What you need to realize is that SNOOPERS may have felt “empowered” and “more important” than me when I was younger and/or ill and off by myself. Simply grabbing ideas and running off with them. I may not have had anything cool or interesting for MONTHS at a time, so they may have grabbed ideas that were NOT GOOD AT ALL. May have been twisted criminal too by angry unpaid snoopers.

I don’t know the snoopers. They are not my people. I do not get phone calls confirming anything I talk about. They may pretend I said them some of the time, other times they may give the ideas to others who know(or don’t) I am being snooped. But NO ONE, all these decades… has called me up on the phone and confirmed ANYTHING I spoke of to myself or others. The DANGER here is… others may have created fiction and I wouldn’t know if they did or didn’t. I’ve been a VICTIM OF HITS… injuries, hate crimes… and I mostly have minded my own business at home! Right now I am being snooped and stalked. NO ONE is calling me up and asking, “Did you really say this???” I have said it OUT LOUD recently… “No one has permission for using my SNOOPED CONTENT, if you get into trouble for using it… IT’S YOUR OWN FAULT.”

It’s very frustrating for me because I have essentially shut down being too creative for now on because I was asked by some crime lords decades ago to do this. “There won’t be money left for the new IPs anyway.” Is what I was told. But freelance snoopers and stalkers may STILL be hoping to get free content ideas–good ones and bad ones… they don’t discern at all! What’s bad is they may be forcing them on Hollywood people to use just so they can make money as SNOOPERS. Not because the ideas could make money in various places. It may be a very criminal “food chain”. The ideas may or may not have come from me and I could get injury hits if the ideas make money or if they cause people to go bankrupt developing them.

Scary Idea…Simple Me as a “Criminal Me”

I HAVE TO RETIREMENT AGE and QUIT IN HASTE any commitment or support of Hollywood, Bollywood… even Dollywood… whatever. I HAVE BEEN TRULY MISTAKEN AS SOMEONE ELSE “risen from death” or something!

Great series, great characters… illustates the “Doctor Jekyl, Mr. Hyde” effect in a single human being. What if these were two different people: a Simple Me (the doctor) and Criminal Me (Hulk)? The doctor knew Hulk could do amazing things, but he couldn’t control like people hoped or wished he could. And others, love Hulk just being his unchained self even if he got injured, damaged, thrown in jail. Both of these characters exist in societies. Not always as obvious as Hollywood can paint them! (Incredible Hulk and promotional photography is copyright MARVEL ENTERTAINMENT, I admit to borrowing this from the internet without written permission and am wiling to remove it if asked.)

MORE THAN ONE MAN, who could have been deemed terroristic with a gun even talented at filmmaking… were involved with gangs and mafia, and getting movies created… USED MY NAME in the 1970s. I AM NOT HIM. I may have looked like HIS DAUGHTER at some point in time. But I was a stand in if you thought that. One used me like A SON… which later became Korean boys and women in Hollywood. I am NOT ONE OF THEM… or you’d all know ME PERSONALLY BETTER and I wouldn’t have to write this over 100mi+ away from Hollywood. Some of the men and women using my name may still be in Honolulu, L.A. even scattered all over the U.S. and internationally. I’m the young one some had to swear to protect and may be how my name got all over Hollywood… but new people over the years may not have known the origin. My “Hollywood dads” and “moms” and “brothers and sisters” used my name and others’ names in L.A. Like “criminal me’s”.

People need the “criminal me’s” in and out of Hollywood FOR MONIES… not someone like me. I was known as a big mouth child, but also a “quiet, creative Steven”… I cannot rise to the occasion of “criminal me” and go brute force movies and money for Hollywood. Nor can I traffic people.

More on “Criminal Me’s”

Another thing about “Criminal Me’s”. Some are obviously not as criminal as others. In my case I got a variety too. But what may need a REVIEW is how many criminals me’s are working against a certain “simple me”. Too many people ganging up on the same person, and not coordinated… equates to more damage and more people thrown in jail.

Some criminal me’s are intelligent and get really great things done! Others are more thuggish and just hate people, don’t love anything.

Corporate “Criminal Me’s”… I want to note, some corporation people come across very criminal… even if they play by the rules and laws of a country. Politicians too. They have to be educated about what’s going on and make tough decisions that could hurt thousands people, maybe millions financially. Some of it requires “management IQ”. I respect those. They DO KNOW ABOUT “simple me” people though, and know NOT to SPEND MONEY damaging them. “Simple me” people are typically not a threat.

I am a “Simple Me” who has been allowed to register motion picture studio names. It’s probably because the high up corporate people know I’m NOT A THREAT TO THEM. They know I wouldn’t do dangerous things. They’ve probably been watching too to see what I’d do. Not all know me well at all. Some have for decades though, but I’m not sure how well. Some may be sad that there are so many criminal me’s that I can’t even just visit major corporations, people from them, or be a “late bloomer” and do more in society than just write online… which is about all I have right now.

I’m capable of being a “corporation criminal me” but not to the level managers at big companies are. They have tougher jobs with a lot of back up, people behind them. I don’t have much at all.

This is funny, just came across this so adding on here…

Hahaha!!! Now.. not all criminal me’s look like batman… and… geezus, I’m NOT that kind of simple me! But I BET there are some “dynamic duos” out there that would surprise people. But the point here is… this catwoman really couldn’t do much to that Batman, and that Batman could do some serious damage to this cat woman… and it wouldn’t make any sense! However, some cat women like this may be hidden criminal me’s who have big criminal me’s elsewhere that could injure Batman… but is it necessary? Would it be necessary to damage Batman because he was .. taller? Male? Or drove a cool car? Or one of the cat’s liked him better? Some simple me catwomen could just give Batman some lunch money on an off day (like his fortune was unavailable).. you know? Lesson here is… maybe should be nicer to each other whoever we are, whichever suit we are wearing? Bat or Cat?

On Stealing from a “Cat Person”

Side note about my survival money in life. One of my father’s demonstrated to a criminal in my childhood… depositing $100 in a bank savings account. That was around the late 1970s. Within the last ten years or so, may have been 2014-2016 or so I was able to get a check from the State of Hawaii for around $200… the savings account had been closed and funds “went to the state”… which happens with a dormant account. The point is… all these decades… NOT ONE PERSON could claim and use the account. So if there are any criminals watching me, stalking me… waiting for a time to knock me down once and for all and bury me… they STILL WON’T GET my survival monies.

I Can’t Handle Gang Monies

Not something I was planning on putting on my blog site, but I want gang/mafia business people to know I cannot take pay offs from them and then pay others. I am simply not protected enough. ALSO, I was supposed to WORK. I was the one who was supposed to work for money. Not take pay offs and sit around. There has been a conflict of interest and this has caused me and all kinds of people confusion. I’ve had amnesia from hits, what’s your excuses–people who may be laughing?

I was told at a very young age I could not be a rp dog, may have been by other rp dogs. They even called me a “cripple” back then. In gang language it meant I needed to work… but in normal people language it panicked me that they were going to actually cripple me! I may have said, “I’m no cripple!” It MEANT to me.. and others.. I wanted to work like average people! In the U.S. a cripple looks like someone who has to sit at home. But a gang cripple is someone who can’t transact with gang money… right? I am asking because I am not an actual gang member, apparently just loosely, faintly adopted by more than one gang.

In the 1970s… my legal legitimate contacts were given money and it was STOLEN. When I was a child, maybe even again as a young adult… was TOLD to go to a specific person for money and when I asked, I got badly injured. More than once all I was doing was picking up a check to deliver to someone else. Wasn’t even money for me!

I beg of people… PLEASE STOP USING ME NOW. Phase out my name(s) in Hollywood, stop pretending I am GATE KEEPER… or KEY MASTER… or someone who has money sitting around somewhere… I have NO BACKROOM people moving money around. I got robbed blind and blindly a long time ago. I’m physically disabled and old now. I don’t even have a part time job at Walmart with cash available to just give children, a temple or church, non-profits or something, you know?

Dust to Dust, Back to Earth

I like nature walks like these in the real world. Not every one can or should follow me though. We all need OUR OWN TIMELINES and paths in life. You can follow me for instance online, but you can do it when you feel like, even in the YEAR you feel like.

I may be returning to Mother Earth themes in the future of my online publishing. Just focusing on health, body, the lands we live on, cultivation, herbalism, organics, gardening(?) even thinking spiritually about people and living. I’ve dealt with the past a lot in recent years and I don’t want to keep going on it. I feel stalkers and snoopers needed to be MORE AWARE why I’m not their actual target. I’m not well monied nor well connected. I had to be disconnected a long time ago. I was replaced by at least 30 people! I discovered… there IS NO SPOT FOR ME to take, slip into, or waiting for me anywhere in Hollywood even outside of it for the town. So I’m staying retired from it.

Here on my blog site, I may continue to post broader ideas and themes. I humbly apologize if there were people expecting me to be a full Hollywood Spielberg. I’m not the same blood, nor same kind of people. I’m more a bohemian, mellow, easy going type of person. Not fancy, just kinda average.

What is the “dust to dust” reference? It means I spent much of my time in my earliest years outside under the sun and skies even barefoot by choice. I like the idea of remembering the Earth and being a part of IT. I don’t have be “one with the human race” or “one with the entertainment’s hive mind thinking and experience”. Being a part of the entertainment industry, even as a friend and not-employed… means a certain ongoing awareness and thoughtfulness. I NO LONGER NEED TO “hold fast” to it. I am returning to “dusty things”. I’m dead to entertainment, but not so much to our Mother Earth. I still have things to do for it. TBD!

No more major corporation contacts!

Hey people, I was too young to be a real corporation executive in the 1970s. I had connections back then to future high paying jobs, but I got HOSTAGED… even taken around the world for a time. Mainly in Hollywood, people were injuring me and asking for money. I BEGGED to be disconnected. I didn’t want to spend my early years in life being attacked. It looked bleak, like criminals just planned to injure me, get money and kill me. Family members were injured too. So WE HAD TO BE DISCONNECTED. There was NO WAY OUT. The companies I had connections to were young and some in start up, meaning no dividends or pay checks anyway. So no hostage money for criminals. I just got cut off completely–no more future job. There were years, decades I lived in low poverty as a result. The criminals involved just kept demanding money and were even stealing survival monies. Some in L.A. PRETENDED they stole my wealth and clout. My health was poor, I was interfered with on so many levels for years and years… but I guess the memo didn’t go out and around? Not connected. Not making any money from anything for years. I was on a stipend to be kept alive. I don’t think I even made a phone call to any company owners to wish happy birthday or anything my whole life. So this idea of threatening to harm me for hostage monies is pathetic. Has been for decades now. Criminals just get frustrated and punished.

What this looks like I was an ACE of cards in the 1970s that people used… got turned into an average “3”, not even a clever deuce(“2”). Looking at things now, it appears criminals have been in denial all these years. May be why I wasn’t allowed to just go have a normal average working middle class life. They may STILL be pretending I have value somehow.

I’ve been a disabled person. In the past they’ve paid doctors off to not allow a disability letter. I’m mobile these days, just not healthy enough for full time work even at a desk.